Friday, January 23, 2009 10:28 AM
its so disheartening to see the one u love telling u something u dun like to hear..
is it neccessary to put everything bout u before the one u love? is she realli tt worthless?
yes, both parties have very stubborn characters n temper.. but cant u see she's trying hard to give in everytime u throw tantrums? how bout u ? have u tried not to provoke her wif ur actions? have u showed her u appreciate the many efforts she's done? have u ever hug her real tight and tell her u'll nv ever let her go?
instead u tell her to get lost n find another guy.. becuz u noe u're in a winning situation.. becuz u noe she'll do anything, everything just to be wif u! becuz u noe her love for u will not die..
u tink she like to waste $$ on cigs? did u ever wonder the reason behind? u wanna noe? did u very ask?
DID U TRY TO EMPHASISE with her SITUATION??
doctor discourage smoking for her cuz she will have bad side effects and high blood pressure.. rem the so many weeks she was very breatheless everyday? everybody noticed.. except YOU.. panting so heavily every night? and do u noe she has heart problems?
so many factors! why she dun wan save herself and instead smoke more n more???? why so stupid!
CAUSE she is very stress and troubled! smoking has becum a form of distraction for her!!
nobody ever ask her wad is she thinking of.. nobody ever cared! nobody wanted to noe how is her day! nobody noes how she;s feeling!! even u, as her BF, dun even bother.. when she told u she's not feeling well and is short of breath, just needa lie down rest, u scream at her n force her to drive.. saying she was a very good actress.. if she has an heart attack and die halfway while driving, will u even bother to help her?
she emptied her entire bank after saving for months.. JUST FOR YOU.. without even blinking her eyes once.. she cried everyday at wrk cuz she was so troubled over $$ and you.. she HATED work so much.. she HATED the colleagues so much.. yet she cant QUIT.. cuz this is the only way of $$ coming in every month..
she ignored fren's advise, and stood with u all the way.. doing everything for u.. ppl criticise her day after day.. u dunno how hurt she is.. yet in front of u, she has to act like nth happened.. even if u noticed her sad face everyday, u probably wouldn't know she's hurting inside.. u just thought she's giving yet another bored face..
whenever she go out shopping.. her piority is nv herself first.. it's u.. she buys any slightest things u like, used, have .. nv once putting the things she needed on her to-buy list 1st.. she replenish ur neccssities, did u realize it? u thought ur maid bought them for u? or u just keep using n using, wondering why it nv runs out?
it is just so unfair.. she just wanted attention.. is it that difficult? ain't it supposed to be what goes around comes around? she gave her TLC unconditionally, y din she receive wad's supposed to come around for her? did it got lost halfway through?
if u've given her enough attention and respected her, would she have given up smoking long ago.. 85% yes yes!!
dun force her to give up smoking because u simply detest it!! think the other way round instead.. why cant she leave her ciggs? is it because of etc etc etc?? how can i help her? where in the world would ppl set a DATE and get her to stop from tt DATE onwards?
she dun own u anything, sacrificing so much is alr a merit.. dun expect more n more?
dun tell her wad ppl predicted bout ur r/s!! dun say she have damn bad temper.. dun ask her to give in more! dun ask her not to throw tantrums! dun criticise n insult her everyday! why din u tink u have extremely bad temper? why din u give in den?
GIVE HER SOME SELF ESTEEM WILL YOU? u pressured and forced her too much, tt's why she has phobia of u! she has no attention, no care, thats why she throw tantrums, cry everyday! children do that too! they cant express feeling n speak out, tts why they CRY.. tts the onli way they get attention from their mummy..
u forbid her to talk to any of her frens on her problems, u forbid her to blog her feelings out, u dun care bout her.. wad else can she do ?
its more den enough..
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did my manicure ytd night, and it got ruin within 5hrs.. u dun even asked to see my nails.. u dun think it was u who spoiled it too.. im so disappointed in u..
thanks june who got mi a super duper cute photo frame.. and i love it lots! too bad i have no means to upload pic.. if not i will post it!!
thanks yanniee for the laughters last night which took away tt few hrs of unhappiness..
u're appreciated girls! and i love u 2 as much as u 2 love mi~ heee
