Friday, December 26, 2008 9:19 AM
after waiting for so long, a yr.. for xmas and today.... i realized it was a foolish thing to do.. no matter how long i wait, how i anticipate, and how much hints i give.. u will nv nv understand wad i wan..
so wad if its a day out? ITS A DAY OUT WITH UR FRENS!! since cny till now, i have not watched a movie.. have not done any shoppings wif u frm the day we got together.. have not even had a neoprint taken, which u noe i wanted so much to do on just a special day every yr.. yet i get, disappointment..
even being out together, i get scoldings, ditched in shopping malls alone frm u, i get pressurised and forced during driving.. i nv nv feel at ease..
just like ytd.. the whole nite, for the WHOLE NITE, i drove u.. and there was not a single word exchanged btw us.. the relationship is just like a chaffeur and his owner.. i am the chaffeur.. waiting for ur commands on where to go.. when to stop.. even when im hungry, thirsty and need to go toilet.. i have to distract myself by looking at scenaries.. even when u buy drink and gulp it in front of mi, u nv even thought of my thirst..
the feeling being treated like this is damn terrible..
fug everything, every day, everytime....