Wednesday, October 22, 2008 5:24 PM
i dun wanna run away but i cant take it
i dun understand.
if im not meant for u,
then why does my heart tell mi that i am?
is there anyway thay i can stay in ur arms?
cuz i miss u,
body and soul so strong that it takes my breathe away.
and i'll bring u
into my heart and pray for this strength to stand today..
cuz i lovee u,
whether its wrong or right,
although i cant be wif u tonight
and though my heart is by ur side
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just as i reached office, i blogged and tears flow down.. i went outside to sit, irene came out.. without a word, she sat beside mi with her sympathetic pair of eyes.. she knows i dun wanna talk.. and saw my tears stained face.. wadever..
afternoon- juz as i recovered frm the emo feel, mummy called..
she saw my empty drawers, belongings gone..
she asked why, and i said dunno
i wanted to forget everything..
but why am i still in contact wif ppl related to u?
i din realise leaving was tis hurting and painful..
perhaps for u not.. i dunno..
i wan to feel loved..
i wan a shoulder to lean to slp at nite and i need ur presence badly..
i nv nv nv dare think things would happen and end so unexpectely..
just like a bomb suddenly dropped and tarnish my world..
the once pretty face is gone
the once cheerful girl has faded
the once noisy rascal has quieten
and now i bring u into my world of emptiness and sadness..
ppl say im stupid, yes i am
ppl say i cant do it, yes i cant
wadever u all say, i AM
i need a good and long rest..
i forsee weeks and nights of crying..
i assume swollen eyes every morning..
i p-r-e-t-e-n-d nth has happen..
yes, nth has happen at all
in 2 days its gonna be our 1yr10mth
in 6 days, its gonna be ur bday
in 23 days, its gonna be my bday
suddenly i dun have any mood to celebrate my special day
it'll be no use w/o u, no fun w/o u.. even though its alr been w/o u all along.. work is most impt, den frens den family.. im just a toy..
JUST LET MI DIE IN PEACE
