Wednesday, October 29, 2008 5:53 AM
hais.. u've enjoyed ur bday enough.. i did not disturb u for the whole night..
yes, i went out.. but i was crying in a corner, thinking n thinking..
when i heard that u was drunk, i was so worried.. i came home, saw u lying down dead drunk, den u sat up, i wanted to care for u so much, yet u ask mi to siam.. do u know how hurting it is to mi? hais..
do u rem ur promise? that u will acc mi today? for u, i skipped work, i skipped school.. i put in so much effort.. but i get nth in return.. u even threaten mi u will hug a ger home just to show mi.. i realli feel so helpless.. i've done everything i could.. and u nv appreciate anything..
now i could onli sit helplessly beside u, worried u will vomit, worried u will feel sick.. and blog away with my tears..
ppl intro guys to mi.. none of them i entertained.. i onli had eyes for u.. i din even smile or talk to them.. do u know that?
ling, u've enjoyed enough don't u? is it time to return to ur own self? i dun understand why u would wanna hide ur hp and wallet from mi.. i searched up and down, but i couldn't find it.. is it u're hiding tings from mi? if u realli dun wanna see mi so much, dun wan mi staying here anymore.. just tell mi.. i will leave gracefully..
all along i believe u did all this in a moment of folly, nv did i expected u to get addicted to it.. was can i do to make u be back urself?
its the final day today.. i tell myself.. i force myself.. i let u enjoy, but if u really cant be back urself after this day of enjoyment, mayb im just stupid to cling on.....
i cant get to slp, all i wan is to be with u.. because of u, i nearly quit my job.. because of u, i talk back to everyone who care for mi.. i know they've all given up on mi, and im all alone now.. i really need someone to be there for mi..
my heart is bleeding profusely.. im deeply hurt.. by u...
