Tuesday, October 28, 2008 9:00 AM
hais, why did tings turn out to be this way again? alot happened ytd.. mummy told mi to o home slp for 1 nite to try things out wif u..
u promise mi u will goout watch movie+eat with mi.. u made mi anticipate it so much that even though i slept at 8am in the morning, i woke upo at 11am just becuz i wan to faster go out wif u..
in the end, just a word, i very tired.... all my hopes were dashed..
all along, we slept different bed.. do u noe how sad it is? when we woke up at evening, ur bro cb pull u aside whisper whisper and back comes ur bad temper.. which i realli hated and hated alot.. u say u dun wan see mi again and ran out..
whole nite, i cried, i wandered around ur house.. i sat and stoned.. and i dunno wad was i doing.. time flew to 1am++.. u still haven reach hm.. haiis.. i msged u say i will wait.. i wan to talk to u..
i accidentely fell aslp at 130.. woke up at 230.. u was sleeping on the sofa? why do u keep running away???
WHY? ling, do u enjoy being like this?
i realized the fortune teller whom mummy went to was right.. her 2nd son, u, the most goody and fillial boy will turn out to be very bad.. is this the beginning? i dun wan!! i just wan u, my cute and sweet mengmeng..
everyday, i msg u about my feelings, my sufferings.. but, u took a deaf ear.. u pretend/realli dun care? why do i always have to call u so many times b4 u will finally ans my calls? am i realli not that impt? when i ask u where are u, why do u always shout at mi and ask why do i need to know?
i worry about u everyday, u noe? now i just reach office, and im crying again.. will u care for mi once again? i told u i feel my body weakening everyday.. not enough slp, nv eat, stress, depression..
i ponder 1 day if i faint and end up in hospital, will u care for mi? will u rush to see mi immediately? if u will, i will do just that..
